I may repeat myself
Problems that stifle my creativity.
1. I keep looking at Facebook to often and frequently. It distracts me from getting real work done.
2. Perhaps I am too eager to be negative. Maybe.
3. I worry too much about whether people read my blog or not. I want people to read it, and want to increase my readership. Not sure how. I am always looking for likes and shares. Maybe too much.
4. I worry too much that Rebecca will not post my newest article on the page. She usually comes through for me, but not always. I get nervous she will not post it , as posting it increases my readership. I am afraid if she doesn't read it, then others won't and that my writing was a waste of time.
5. I never concentrate on one thing at a time. I'm multitasking too much. Instead of watching a movie and concentratin on it, I am constantly checking my FB. I need to focus on things more if I want to adequitly talk about them in great quality and significance. I am either in too much of hurry to get through things and hastely do things. Or I spend too much time on something where I dont' move on. Well its time to move on. I need to take the time I need and no more and no less.
6. I don't get an adequate amount of sleep. This probably effects many things I do.
7. I don't spend enough time in prayer. God needs to be first. I can't put off my writing or browsing till I'm done with Mass. I don't concentrate on my prayers and rush throgh them. Think of sensual things too much. Not enough prayer.
8. I don't spend enough time contacting people. I have friends and I have let friendships go as I have become more of an introvert and lack of sleep and wanting to write. I used to put alot into my friendships. Now I don't.
9. I don't go out of my way to read the book of the month for the Sci Fi club. I could engage in more conversations if I did.
10. If I had more focus and concentration and commitment I would sign up for Masterclass or skill share and I would use it and write more stories.
11. I feel sad were distant from our daugher and grandchild. I need to pray for her more. She makes me angry.
12. I can't give up. I must keep going. I think this is the path I should take. I can change course to something different but the same. I'm not done yet. I can keep going. I can change for the better. I will change eventually anyway. I must sacrfice and give up, take up and take risks. Now is the time. I've made mistakes and had setbacks, but I can start again and move on. Starting today. Not letting my past define me. I will still stumble, fall and make mistakes. But maybe I can make less or learn and grow. It's time to do something different. I'm rambling but this is also a prayer asking God to lead me to do his will and to change and help me with the talents and skills he has set before me.
